My boys are finally in the playoffs for the first time since 2000. GO PANTHERS!!!!!

2000. That was the last year that I was able to experience playoff hockey as a panthers fan. It has been a long and hard wait to get the chance to fight for the Stanley Cup again, but they finally are back at it. It sucks that I have to work for the first game but at least I have DVR. So Ill just watch it when I get home. CAN"T WAIT!!!

So people have asked me "Why do you like the Florida Panthers?' Well here is the story of why the Panthers mean so much to me. I started liking them way back in November of '93. I started to like them cause they were called the Panthers and I love cats. I believe the first game I saw on TV of them was when they played the Bruins of that year. As the year went by I liked how they played. So I was hooked. I would call my grandmother during every game to get updates on the scores. She would check on Headline News for me. She also bought me my first Panthers jersey. I believe it was the white home one. I wore it so much that the panther fell off of it. She also bought me shirts as well. The first Panthers game I ever saw live was the last game they ever played at the Boston Garden on March 11th. The Panthers won 2-0. I went with my father. He fell asleep during it. How some one falls asleep during a hockey game I don't know. Toward the end of the second season I just couldn't take how they were so close to making the playoffs and just could not close it. So I stopped being a fan. But in September of '95 my great grandmother died. It was hard. In that sadness I went back to the Panthers. I just loved them too much. Well good thing I did go back cause this season was going to be a fun one. I went to another regular season game again against the Bruins. Yea and we won again. This year was called The Year Of The Rat. It was called that because Scott Melanby One-timed a rat. The Panthers made the playoffs that year as the #4 seed. They would be going up against the bruins. My teacher Mr. Bourque brought me to Game 3 at the Fleetcenter. We meet this couple there that were Panthers fans. They had Paul Laus flip over a puck and they gave it to me. They also got my address and like a week later they sent me a package of Panthers merchandise. It was so awesome. Oh yea and the Panthers won that game. They would end up winning the series on this AWESOME GOAL.  Then they took care of the Flyers and Pittsburgh before losing to the Avalanche. It was such a great season. I also got a package from the owner of the Panthers back then Wayne Huizenga. The teacher that brought me to the Bruins-Panthers game sent a letter to him. So that was awesome. I also make a scrap book of the season as well. That next year they went to the playoffs again but lost to the rangers in 5. I was able to watch them at home now seeing as we finally got cable. I would have to go to my uncle Ronans or Jacks house to watch the games. So when I moved out of my parents house and lived with my grandparents I go a computer and I was able to listen to every game that the Panthers played. Then when I moved in with Melissa's family I got the NHL Center Ice Package and was then able to watch them anytime they played and I have had it ever since. I have gone down to Florida to see a couple of games. I went to see a game against the Kings on Oct. 26th 2001.(We won 3-2). And then again on Jan 21st 2002 against Montreal. (We also won that game 7-5).  I did stop liking the Panthers for one game back in 2010 and went to the Dark Side. Like I said it lasted just one game. Can't believe I did that. NEVER AGAIN!!!!!

Well I'm going to close this out. The reason I love the Panthers so much is because of these 3 reasons.

1. It brought me close to my grandmother. She supported my fanship of the
    Panthers. She would look up the scores for me whenever I called. She
    bought me my first Panthers jersey. She passed away in March of 2004.
    That's the main reason why I love the Panthers so much. It was because
    of her support of them.
2.  The taught me loyalty, Being a fan during that 11 years of no playoffs
      you really need to have tough skin. It has taught me to be there for
     friends through thick or thin. No matter how bad it gets it does get 
     better.
3.  They give me such joy and happiness.

GO PANTHERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Not as good as the last one

Well again Im late with the monthly blog. Oh well. So March was not as great as a month as I wanted it to be. Every week I saw my hours go down to 2 days a week. I was not to pleased with this. So I finally talked to my manager and asked if I could get more hours and he said that he would be able to give me around 30-40 a week. So that made me feel better. I just want to add somethinng to this. I just CAN NOT STAND pleople that complain that they have to go to work or that they hate there job. At least you have a job asshole. There are people that dont have one or dont get hours. I know how it is. It sucks.

I finally switched banks. BANK OF AMERICA SUCKS!!! I switched becuase I hate how they charge you a fee every month. So i went with Quincy Credit Union. Also me and Melissa went to Mohegan Sun. It was fun. Other then that not much happened.

So for the month of March I had 1 excellent days, 13 Good, 12 Ok, and 6 bad.

Let the heat warm your cold dark heart.

Alittle late but ive been working alot latley. The month of Febuary was 1000% times better then January. The beginning started alright. I was not getting much hours yet at work but it was cool. Toward the middle of the month I ended getting up alot more and now I am getting like 30+ hours a week. I really am liking it there.

Other then that not much really happened. Life went alot better then it has in awhile for me. The Panthers are stilling holding on to a playoff spot and yea very thing is going very well. So of the 29 days in Febuary 1 was manic, 5 excellent, 18 good, and 5 okay. My top played song of the month was

Retail SUUUUUCCCCKKKKSSSS!!!!!

So I have now been in the restaurant industry for a month now and I'm really liking it. A lot more fast pace industry than retail. Constantly on the move constantly doing things. If you all don't know I work the fry station in Dave and busters. So I make anything that is fried. For example chicken fingers chicken wing mozzarella sticks so forth and so forth.I am so glad you are retail

There are so many things wrong with the retail industry.I'll talk now both the things that I truly hated about retail.

1. The management in retail has its finger stuck up it's ass. Now I have done management in retail. When I was at Best Buy I was the media supervisor. At Barnes & Noble I was the head cashier. At CVS I was b the shift supervisor. At Target I was the GSTL and Target Cafe team lead. In all those management roles I always look out for my people because without your people you don't have job. But that cannot be said about other management in retail. I've had many managers that total assholes. I had this one GM at Best Buy that would always pick on me. it caused me so much stress that there was times I was out of work due to stress. It seemed like all the managers in any job I had seemed to like me. The last manager I had named Don was a complete ass. He thought he was algh and mighty thought he was the king the target. He took a liking to me and in past experiences that never meant to be a good thing. When I got the target Café team lead position he would come over to target Café every single day he was working. Even though he knew nothing of food services, he would tell me what to do and how to on my station. That is the thing with retail managers, they think they know everything, but they do not. My ETL at target was a complete bonehead. She knew nothing of how to run a front end checklane. But do you know how she got that position? Because she had a degree that made her qualified to be a manager in target. Yet here I am with 12 years experience in the retail target would not hire me as a ETL. Please tell me how that makes any sense. It doesn't. a monkey could manage a retail store.

2. Customers suck!!! The other thing that got me was the customers. Any retail job I had the customers would always treat you like shit. I just want me to hate people. They think they're all high and mighty that they deserve whatever they want. They don't care that you are a person as well and that they are better than you. They look at you like you're the scum of the earth. Most customers have no respect.. They will be talking on their cell phones while you're ringing them up and not have the courtesy to hang up. I also hate when they will throw the money down you. It's like why can you not just handed me I find that so disrespectful.

3. Pay in retail sucks. Sure I made okay money, but I also was in management so. If you go in with no retail experience then expect to make about minimum wage. Then when it comes to raise time consider yourself lucky if you get $.25 every year. For my last review I got $.43. And that was for one year. In my new job I could make that in the next month and I could make additional one dollar in the next year. Again the raises in retail suck!!!!

4. Black Friday. This day sucks in retail. Is the day when stores will have " crazy" sales. Due to the fact that America is such a consumerist country people need their things. When I started retail the earliest stores would open would be 5 AM. My last Black Friday my store opened at 1 AM. They would have opened earlier it was not a Massachusetts state law that we could not be in the building before 12 AM. Every year I've opened I will see a line of people waiting in the bitter cold for something that's saving maybe an extra $50. Just sad and due to this sick nature I had not been able to enjoy Thanksgiving in the last five years this was one of my biggest things I hate about retail. It's like people just enjoy the holiday and then have a good night sleep and go out seven in the morning. I'm sure you've all seen the crazy Black Friday videos on YouTube it is that bad.

5. Benefits in a retail also suck. You have to pay an arm and a leg for shitty coverage. When I left target I was on the first of the three packages that they offered. It cost me $120 every two weeks. And they would even cover one of my prescriptions. You would think that a multi-billion dollar company could give better health insurance.

So in closing I hate retail. I never want to go back again!!!!!

January 2012: WHAT A MONTH!!!!!

Well January did not end off being a month to remember. Really looking forward to an awesome start to the new year. I started it with having a five day vacation from work. I was using the time to catch up on Skyrim and get away from work altogether.

So I come back from work on January 5. For the first time in a while is actually excited to be back working. Started off well, until I went to lunch. I not getting it really into detail about it. Pretty much I aid got fired the next day. If you want to know what happens his link to the blog.

For about a week and a half I was in utter shock and completely numb. I just had no strength at all to look for another job. I ended up sleeping most of the time. Thankfully, I have some really great friends an awesome wife that help me through the depression of losing a job the way I did. I don't know what I would've done without them, I deftly want to thank the people that have been helpful. Thank you very very much, I very much appreciate it.

Well when I finally did get strength find a job again I decided enough was enough I just could not do retail more. So I decided to go look into a career that I have been wanting to do my whole life and that was be working in a restaurant as a cook. So I applied to Dave and Busters as a line cook. I believe I applied on January 10.I went in on January 12 and I spoke with Chris the kitchen manager. I believe it went pretty well. he said he would contact me on January 17 and tell me if I had gotten the job. Well, the 17th came and went and no call for them. I called the next two days but he was not there. So I am going in there on the 19 and spoke with him again. He offered me the job as a line cook. It really didn't hit me yet that I had gone the job seeing as I was so numb the whole last two weeks. But I was just relieved to finally have a job I guess. So I ended up going out on that Friday with Tom, Jess, and Melissa Wright. We ended up going to blue 22 for few drinks. Then next day I went out with John, Dwayne, my wife Melissa,and Ian to Dave and Buster's. Is a good time.

So I had my orientation on the 23rd. But due to the fact I was not in the system yet I did not officially start until Monday, January 30. All in all I think I'm really going to like this job. I'm just getting glad I don't have to deal with the general public again.

So here's hoping that February will be 100 times better. I also ended up doing a mood tracker thing for the month January. Of the 31 days in January, 14 days I was happy, five days okay,and 12 days I was unhappy,

I will be doing this for every month I will also put a video up of the most played song of that month. So here it is

Na Na Hey Hey Goodbye 8/98-1/12

I know its been awhile since Ive done a blog but I recently just got fired from my job at Target . I tell you how it happened. I just got back from having a nice 5 days off. I really needed them. I was excited to go back to work. The last 3 months had been really frustrating. I was dealing with getting over losing a really good friend at work. Her name was Jennifer Soucy, but I'll go into that another time. So I go into work on Thursday January 5th. I see well I am painting the pizza's (pizza hut term of preparing the pizza's) i see that my team had panned too much dough. So i saw that I would have to throw away like 45 pans of pizza dough. So I really did have enough money to buy myself anything so I made my self a buffalo and bacon pizza for myself. I go into the break room to eat it and then My STL (Store Team Lead) came in and saw me eating it and he got all mad cause I didn't make him one. So he is like did you pay for that and I kinda panicked and said yea. But he still would not let it be and he was like were is your receipt and  was like I throw it away. And he still kept going on about it and was like I think we may have to look at the camera's to see if you really did. I was like Ok go ahead. So i go in the next day thinking everything is cool and stuff. On my way to go upstairs to the food court for lunch the AP Ex. tells me that Don (the STL) wanted to talk to me. So I was like ok. So I follow Hal into Don's office. He wanted to see me about what happened on Thursday about the pizza that I said that I paid for. He said that they looked on the camera and saw that I didn't pay for it. So I finally broke down and said that I didn't and said that I would pay for it. But they said that it was late and that they had to go to their "partners" whatever the hell that meant.He also told me that their was a rumor going around that me and Jennifer were dating. Of course I was still numb to the fact that I was probably going to get fired that I really couldn't denied  it. All I said is that I would rather be a Bruins fan then date that stupid bitch.  so I got upstairs for my lunch. I know that I'm done for. I didn't eat anything on my lunch. I go back to work after my lunch but I was just totally to numb to really do anything. Around 230ish I tell my team member that I am going to the bathroom. I was really going to go see what the verdict was on my job. On my way to the bathroom Hal meets me and said that a decision has been made. So I walk with him to Don's Office. I walk in and see the envelope on his desk and im like yea Im done. I have been fired before so yea. So I just broke down. I had told myself that i was going to commit suicide if I had lost this job. I really liked it there and I really wanted to retire with Target. So I cool down and left. I just hung out around the mall for like 3 hours. I was just so Numb. I called and texted a few people and told them. The next few days I just was depressed to do anything. I really did want to end it all. I was just so sick and tired of not being able to keep and hold a job. I just felt like such I horrible husband to Melissa. I felt like she could do so much better then me. Give her everything that she deserves that I clearly could not.
So finally I got the strength to go look for a job and I applied at Dave and Busters in Braintree as a line cook. Working in the kitchen has been something I have always wanted to do for a career since I was taking culinary arts in high school. When I tried going into the Marines i was going to go in as a cook but that didn't work out cause of my eye's. Then I worked at Chilies for a few weeks in '98 but that really didn't work out either. So I just work retail for the next 14 years. Toward the tail end of it I was really hating it. I hated dealing with the customers and just the bullshit of retrial in all. So I guess it was a good thing that I got fired. So anyway i spoke with the kitchen manager on Thursday Jan. 12th. I went well. He said that he would get back to me on Tuesday Jan. 17th. Well that past and still no call. I was starting to get really be depressed. I really wanted this job more then anything. So I was like look the only way im going to get this is just by being a pest and keep on calling.So I did. Then I Thursday I was like ok Im just going to go in and talk to him. So I did and he offered me the job. It really didn't hit me right away. But later it did. It was finally good to be going into a career that I have been wanting to do my whole life.

So after 14 years I am FINALLY done with reatail and stupid customers. I am so happy. I can't wait to start my new career.

Top 50 Played Songs from 2011

1		Riz Ortolani – Cannibal Holocaust (Main Theme)			43
2		Riz Ortolani – Crucified Woman			42
3		In This Moment – World In Flames			35
4		Enrique Iglesias – I Like It			32
5		Lady Antebellum – Need You Now			29
6		Lords Of Acid – Little Mighty Rabbit			25
7		Nyan Cat – Nyan Cat			24
8		Boris – Party Boy			23
8		Lady Gaga – Fashion of His Love			23
10		Assemblage 23 – Fallen Down			22
11		Hinder – Red Tail Lights			20
11		In Flames – Deliver Us			20
13		Blood Stain Child – Freedom			19
13		Kill Hannah – Promise Me			19
13		Boris – Aileron			19
13		Lady Gaga – Hair			19
17		Venom – Clarisse			18
17		Carfax Abbey – Right As Reign			18
19		Emilie Autumn – Epilogue: What If			17
19		Kings of Leon – Sex On Fire			17
19		Lady Gaga – Dance in the Dark			17
19		Soundtrack – Nekromantik 1987 theme			17
23		Erasure – A Little Respect			16
23		Pet Shop Boys – Try It (I'm In Love With A Married Man)			16
23		The Electric Hellfire Club – Unholy Roller			16
23		Boris – Naki Kyoku (edit)			16
23		Carfax Abbey – Serenity			16
23		Pet Shop Boys – A New Life (2001 Digital Remaster)			16
23		Ennio Morricone – Salo or 120 Days Of Sodom theme			16
23		Boris – Attention Please			16
31		Pet Shop Boys – Flamboyant			15
31		Proxyon – Space Hopper			15
31		Riz Ortolani – Adulteress' Punishment			15
31		Rammstein – Mein Land			15
35		Nine Inch Nails – Happiness In Slavery			14
35		Venom – In Nomine Satanas			14
35		Nine Inch Nails – Heresy			14
35		Emilie Autumn – Yoshimi Battles The Pink Robots			14
35		Blood Stain Child – Embrace Me			14
35		Carfax Abbey – Evisceration			14
35		Dark the Suns – Reflections			14
35		Britney Spears – Amnesia			14
35		Hinder – Last Kiss Goodbye			14
35		Soundtrack – 22nd Floor			14
35		In Flames – Fear Is The Weakness			14
46		Assemblage 23 – Lullaby			13
46		Pet Shop Boys – Home And Dry			13
46		Emilie Autumn – The Art of Suicide			13
46		Emilie Autumn – Marry Me			13
46		Pet Shop Boys – In Private (Stuart Crichton Club Mix)			13